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Maria Valtorta (Itália, ano 1897-1961) - Obra: "O Evangelho como me foi revelado" (1944-1950) [Maria Valtorta comments:] Judas Iscariot, who has been grumbling between his teeth since Jesus mentioned Caesarea, raises his voice as if the kiss given to Philip has made him lose control of his actions. And he says: «How many useless things! I don’t really understand why it is necessary to go to Caesarea!» and he says so with
angry impetuosity; he seems to imply: «and You Who want to go there are a fool.»
[Bartholomew says:] «It is not for you to judge the necessity of what we do, but for the Master» Bartholomew replies to him.
[Judas Iscariot says:] «Really, why not? As if He saw natural necessities clearly!»
[Peter says:] «I say! Are you mad or sane? Do you realise of Whom you are speaking?» asks Peter shaking him by the arm.
[Judas says:] «I am not mad. I am the only one with sound brains. And I know what I am saying.»
[James, Simon, Thomas and Judas of Alphaeus says:] «You are saying lovely things!» «Beg God not to take them into account!», «Modesty is not your strong point!», «One might think that you are afraid that by going to Caesarea you might be found out for what you are» say James of Zebedee, Simon Zealot, Thomas and Judas of Alphaeus respectively.
The Iscariot addresses the last one: «I have nothing to be afraid of and you have nothing to find out. But I am tired of seeing that we pass from one error to another, ruining ourselves. Conflicts with the members of the Sanhedrin, arguments with Pharisees. The Romans are the last straw…»
[Bartholomew says:] «What? Less than two months ago you were overjoyed, you were full of confidence, you were, you were… you were everything because Claudia was your friend!» remarks Bartholomew ironically who, being the most… uncompromising, is the one who does not rebel against contacts with the Romans only out of obedience to the Master.
Judas is speechless for a moment because the logic of the ironical remark is obvious, and unless he is prepared to appear illogical, he cannot contradict what he said previously. But he soon collects himself and says: «It is not because of the Romans that I am saying that. I mean because of the Romans as enemies. They… after all they are only four Roman ladies, four, five, six at the most, they promised to help us and they will. But it is because that will increase the hatred of His enemies, and He does not realize that and…»
[Jesus says:] «Their hatred is intense, Judas. And you know that as well as I do, even better than I do » says Jesus calmly stressing the word «better».
[Judas says:] «Me? Me? What do You mean? Who knows things better than You do?»
[Jesus says:] «Just now you said that you are aware of necessities and how to make use of them…» retorts Jesus.
[Judas says:] «With regards to natural things, yes. I say that You know spiritual matters better than anybody.»
[Jesus says:] «That is true. But I was just saying to you that you know better than I do, unpleasant, disgraceful, natural things, if you wish to call them so, such as the hatred of My enemies, such as their purposes…»
[Judas says:] «I know nothing! I do not know anything. I swear to it on my soul, on my mother, on Jehovah…»
[Jesus says:] «That is enough! It is written that you must not swear[93]» orders Jesus with such severity that even His countenance seems to become petrified in the perfection of a statue.
[Judas says:] «Well, I shall not swear. But I must be allowed to say, since I am not a slave, that it is not necessary, that it serves no purpose, on the contrary it is dangerous to go to Caesarea, to speak to the Romans…»
[Jesus says:] «And who told you that that will happen?» asks Jesus.
[Judas says:] «Who? Everything! You need to make sure of something. You are on the track of a…» he stops realizing that wrath is making him say too much. He then resumes: «And I tell You that You ought to think also of our interests. You have deprived us of everything: home, earnings, affections, peace. We are persecuted because of You and we shall be persecuted even later. Because You, You say so in every possible way, will go away one fine day. But we are staying. We shall be ruined, but we…»
[Jesus says:] «You will not be persecuted when I am no longer among you. I, who am the Truth, tell you so. And I tell you that I have taken what you spontaneously and insistently gave Me. So you cannot say that I have taken away from you, with abuse of power, even one of the hairs that fall off when you tidy them. Why are you accusing Me?» Jesus is now less severe, His sad countenance expresses the desire to bring Judas
back to reason kindly and I think that his compassion, so full and so divine, acts as a check on the others, who would not be so sympathetic towards the culprit.
Judas also perceives that and with one of the brusque changes of his soul urged by two opposed forces, he throws himself on the ground striking his head and chest and shouting: «Because I am a demon. I am a demon. Save me, Master, as You save so many demoniacs. Save me! Save me!»
[Jesus says:] «Do not let your desire to be saved be inactive.»
[Judas says:] «It exists. You can see that. I want to be saved.»
[Jesus says:] «By Me. You expect Me to do everything. But I am God and I respect your free will. I will give you the strength so that you may get to say: "I do want". But to want not to be a slave must come from you.»
[Judas says:] «I do want! I do want! But do not go to Caesarea. Don’t go! Listen to me as You listened[94] to John, when You wanted to go to Achor
[a city]. We have all the same rights. We all serve You in the same manner. You are obliged to satisfy us for what we do… Treat me as You treated John! I want it! What difference is there between him and me?»
[James says:] «The soul is different! My brother would never have spoken as you did. My brother does not…»
[Jesus says:] «Be silent, James. I will speak. To everybody. And you
[Judas] stand up and behave as a man, as I treat you, not like a slave moaning at the feet of his master. Be a man, since you are so anxious to be treated as John, who, truly, is more than a man because he is chaste and full of Charity. Let us go. It is late. I want to cross the river at dawn. The fishermen will be coming back then after hauling the lobster-pots and it is easy to find a ferry-boat. The moon in her last days raises her thin crescent higher and higher. We will be able to walk faster in her increased light.

 

 
Vide também Vida e Obra de Maria Valtorta
Nota sobre a fonte: Maria Valtorta foi uma mística católica italiana. Durante sua vida, ela foi agraciada com revelações de Jesus Cristo sobre o Evangelho, e também de Nossa Senhora, do Espírito Santo e de vários santos e anjos.